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Dedicated to an X-FRIEND!!!!

{ March 22, 2007 @ 7:49 pm } · { ScrapBook, Screwed Up Life }
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 We’re still BEST FRIENDS…hahahah… talur sehari saja kami kelahi ani best friend tahhh balik…. and we’re working at the same company now… so i cant get rid of him that easy…. hehehehe…. im still glad and glad that he is still my brother and my best friend that i could count on…. TQ for being who you are…and STOP trying to pissed me off… which he did now!!!!  Dramatic banar kami kelahi dulu, abis wahh satu gang kumpul trying to patch things out… hehehe.. it was hilarious… im glad for the groups…18people hanging out everyday… life wont be complete without all of you…

First of all.. i have so many spelling mistake, wrong words being used…unorganize words… heck my english is rubbish..and i dont feel like editing it either… so bear in mind with the crappy things that i wrote…and no point for anyone to correct my english…because my IQ is very low!!! 

This goes to R…who was a friend, then became my close friend, then became my best friend and now who i used to  see him as a brother…unfortunately the 6 years of friendship have gone down the drain!!!…if ure reading this…yes i am being childish for posting this up…and yes i will TRY to stop blaming other people for the things that i could not achieve!!!!well since you wont answer my phone calls..and if by any chances that you are reading this blog…so here is why i BLOW A FUSE!!!!

i have 6 fucking course to do…which i am blaming myself and UBD for making my life a fucking shit hole!!!! and every damn afternoon (U ureself see that i will always have my books around!!!!) and u keep on saying ‘awal2 ani saja tuu…karang mana ada tuu taruh notes tuuu!!!!an insults that i repeatedly told u never to do” at night i couldnt sleep thinking of the notes that i havent done!!!! so yeah aku online…so blaming myself there!!!! tuesday,wednesday,thursday and saturday… my classes have NO BREAKS!!!!!! its either 3 hours straight or 5 hours straight!!!!!!! and my freaking classes starts DAMN EARLY in the MORNING!!!! my life is spent at OREN 24/7!!!! BASCIALLY…unlike u… I HAVE NO LIFE!!!!

My outburst happen like this!!!!!

I mention to J that i wasnt going in for IE tutorial…since i was in KB… unfortunately… J keeps on nagging me and lecturing me about why i just didnt tell my mum that i couldnt accompany her to KB, to my late-cuz makan 7 hari… and to me i thought that conversation ended…BUT UNFORTUNATELY J keep on nagging and complaining and lecturing the importance of missing tutorial…and he just couldnt stop to bugging me!!!! HOWEVER, UNFORTUNATELY u CAME at the wrong time, by interrupting the conversation by stating ‘I SAW URE BROTHER AT THE MALL’ and somehow… that gave the impression.. how come my brother was at the mall.. while i was at KB since its a family thing (which someone did mention about it)!!!! in other words… WITH THAT TONE OF URES, U WERE CREATING AN IMAGE OF ME LYING THAT I WAS IN KB” get it!!!!!!! so to get the two of you to stop asking me question I JUST HAD TO BLOW THE FUSE!!!!!!!!!!! and this happen right before PSE test…so the pressured from the RE test results, IMS test results and PSE TEST TAT DAY!!! was overwhelming that i had to SCREAM and SHOUT to u GUYS…which i am sorry for my CHILDISH BEHAVIOR!!!!but unfortunately…u DIDNT GET IT!!!! u didnt stop TALKING!!!! u keep on bugging mE!!!! that is why i am DAMN FURIOUS WITH U!!!!! U KNOW I GET EASILY PRESSURE WHEN IT COMES TO ACADEMIC!!!!i have been telling u…I AM NOT THAT CLEVER!!!!!I Try and i try…. WHAT MORE DO U WANT ME TO DO????? I told u… NEVER INSULT me when it comes to academic…DO U EVER LISTEN????? AT LEAST W understand!!!!!he knows and he try to give MORAL SUPPORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do u know that i actually cry that day… for shouting at you guys!!!! did u know that??????????? Before the test..i was crying outside…Where were you??? arent you suppose to be my brother who suppose to know me ‘as u claim u do!!!’ (YES if you read this, you might think…here she goes again blaming me!!!!) SHIT U KNOW malu ku wahh!!!!and dont even know what’s is going on in my HEAD!!!!!!During RE CLASS I WAS HAVING MIGRAINE!!!Headache saja ku the last two weeks…n stop saying its the fucking smoking faults!!!!I want my headache to go away…but everytime after the whole lectures/tutorial are done, my head feels like cramping!!!!!i could feel the tension in my head…and u know what scares me the most….THAT I WILL GO SENILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i try not to pressure myself..but i couldnt…i try not to think of it BUT I CANT either… I am so much AFRAID that i will end up being CRAZY!!! that is what bothering in my head!!! everyday i think that my life would be SHORT!!! U KNOW THAT!!!and im scared of that….(am i blaming u for it????)

NEVER HAVE I SHOUTED AT MY FRIENDS SO FULL OF ANGER IN PUBLIC!!!!!!!!!! YES LIFES a BITCH!!!!! arent friends suppose to help their friends to make their life NOT FULL OF SHIT!!!!!! to you a test is just a test… to me its not!!!!! i need this….. i need all my coursework to do well….hopefully helping me out for my FINALS….cos that when i SCREWED MY PAPERS!!!!!!! I am no ROBOT!!!! i have no HIGH IQ!!! i am FAT!!!! i am UGLY!!! there is nothing in me that i think highly of myself!!! my self – esteem level is ZERO percent.. i am a pessimistic!!!!! u know ALL THAT!!!!!!!!!! how i always look down on myself!!!!! am i blaming other people????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES I WAS CHILDISH….waiting for an apology!!! NOPE that was not what i was waiting…i was waiting for U TO BREAK THE ICE!!!!!! the coldness that i started!!!! U DAMN know how fucking stubborn i am!!!! you want to know why that afternoon and evening i didnt talk to u???!!! cos i had some issues to solve!!!! Both N and I cried out eyes out at OREN…thinking of how hurt we were about our past!!!! apparently i have an unsolved issues with L …he asked C, why aku inda berapa layan and stuff like that….so instead of letting L created assumption about WHY!!!! i had to solve that situation!!!!and FORGIVE ME FOR MY UNFRIENDLY ATTITUDE!!!! my life doesnt evolve U 24/7!!!u want to know what i did before the test…aside going to KB… i had to take care 6 kids!!!! at my sister’s crib…. which includes the cousin…i had to check on them every minute, because

  1. they manage to colour the wall!!!!
  2. they manage to hit each other
  3. they make a huge water pool at the tv room
  4. they manage to lock one of the room and up until now we cant open it..
  5. they keep on going in and out of the house…to their neighbour without informing me!!!!
  6. they left the house at freaking 11PM and sleep at their neighbour house without fucking informing me!!!!
  7. i sleep at 12am and woke up at 4am!!! just to study!!!!!

ok.. if ure reading this.. i might sound as if im blaming on the kids!!!! FINE TAKE IT LIKE THAT IF U WANT!!!!! they are just kids who still need guidance and doesnt know what is wrong and what is right!!!!! NOTED THAT we are living at my sister’s IN-LAWS!!! someone else home, i was the only adult there,aside the grandmother who is too old to run here and there….SO YEAH THAT’s MY REASON WHY I DIDNT STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!screw u man….really screw u!!!!! since u want me to hate u so much.. here u go!!!! u got ure wish… u are officially in my hating list…and i know that when ure reading this… u will still blame aku!!!! and have negative views on me…. SO WHAT!!!! i dont care!!!! i dont need SOMEONE in my LIFE To BE COMPLETE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO WHAT IF I DIED ALONE!!!!! at least i DIED WITH DIGNITY AND PRIDE!!!!!!!!!!!! Im being a bitch here!!!!!! and i will be a bitch to you!!!!!!!!!!!! SO WHAT I DONT CARE!!! screw U!!! U WERE SUPPOSE TO BE MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!! WHO WAS SUPPOSE TO UNDERSTAND ME BETTER THAN I UNDERSTAND MYSELF!!!!!!!SO SCREW U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lucky now u have ure BABY to be by your side.. i hope you all the best wishes in life and may you be a better human being…. In conclusion…i am childish…no one can tolerant my behavior, u want to know why i see guys in negativity… yes i am blaming u this time… u know how G treat me…u know how L treat me… u should know what i want… and i was giving u a chance…. but u never fight for me!!!! i wasnt the one who have feelings (still not having that feelings) and when u fought for ure baby….u gave me an impression that I AM NOT THAT WORTH IT!!!! that my flaws of appearance wise is bothering u…. U never fought for me… u let me slip away that easily… and to this girl..whom u barely know, whom u found her attractive because her appearance and then manage to get to know how… U FOUGHT for it.. than ure Friend who u claim u know inside and outside….. well since u agree that we should let this friendship slip away… than im just not worth the drama…. and sorry for making you’re life childish… sorry for all the laughter and sorry if i PURPOSEDly touched ure car window when you told me not too…sorry for putting perfume at your jacket!!! sorry for making you feel like a girl…sorry for listening to all my sappy sad story!!! sorry for trying to be supportive with your decision…sorry for making you go to UBD and apply,when at first u didnt feel like going!!!! sorry for telling you ure X-Gf secrets…sorry for using your money!!!sorry for making u as a slave….sorry for disturbing your life and LASTLY SORRY FOR ENTERING IN YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!……..

to any one who bump into this site… this post seems weird..and its just because of a misunderstanding..which i admit is my fault…and the way im posting is *no words can say* (if i argue with my real brother, it usually feels like gf/bf arguement…so since THIS GUY IS MY SO CALLED BROTHER*no blood relations* and what the hell am i furious about…is because…. he claim he knows me but honestly U DONT!!!! U never did and i dont think u ever WILL!!!!

if U read the repetition noted that I AM BEING RUDE!!!! im just repeating the fucking words that you claim that i am!!!

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Here’s some add points of HOW I MAKE HIS LIVE A LIVING HELL!!!!!

i message him directly at 12am on his birthday!i always asked him to pay my phone bills first then pay him up (unfortunately last month bill i still havent pay him), on his birthday, i really wanted to celebrate it -because he broke up with his x and there is no one to organize his birthday, on his birthday celebration at home – i wanted to drive on my own since the others were taking their sweet time to go to his place BUT N told me not to drive at night, on his birthday i was so damn broke that i had to used the remaining money that i had to buy something that i thought would be nice for him, everytime i have a problem i would called him up and talk to him, first day of 2007 we split the bills for eating breakfast, on my anniversary with my X he was with me to listen to my sappy stories, i would always torture his life by making him to buy me drinks if i were at the gym, i would ask him to come meet me up if im bored, i would make him as a driver if im lazy to drive, i would be mean and insults him, i would keep on mentioning his past (which no one like), he was my lunch partner when we want to try to expensive pricey food, he would be the one that i hang out with rather than my X, he would help me whenever i need help, he used to scold me if i dont want to show up in UNI, i would worried if he havent done his work, i worried like hell last semester thinking that he havent been studying(asking people have he studied), i always called him names, i make him life a living hell, i smoke in his car when he told me not too, i enjoy torturing him infront of our friends, i have never been grateful having him around (which is NOT true… if i have never been grateful, i wouldnt be the 1st person to pact things up, when i was being a BITCH) REMEMBER U WANTED ME OUT OF URE LIFE LAST YEAR!!! But as i said, repeatedly to any guys…it would take time for me to crawl back into your life!!!, i would called him at 5am in the morning crying telling him how scared my dream was… i try not to get involve between him and his x… i try avoid him since i know i was bugging his life, i try NOT to be MEAN/Bitchy towards him But he ends up relighting the flame, i never be nice to him, i am always rude to him, i am always insulting him and he would always be the first person i called up if i have a problem with guys….

i guess from sentences above this…i really do make ure life a living hell… but if u know me very well…i have always appreciate everything u do!!! I may not show it, because ‘learning from my past’ as quoted from L “i am a good actor” he himself didnt know whether i was jealous after one month we broke up he mention about another girl… and i never showed him my weakness…. i am a girl not yet a woman… i guess i never understand the meaning of relationship, since i am not good at it… i always enjoyed the road trip, i was excited to know where you’re FOREST is…i hate the fact you tend to drive fast not caring the people in your car!!! yes i do drive fast and AS A FEMALE – we are bad drivers (get the tone right!!) I guess it is I who dont understand u… it is me who never appreciate u (as what u claim) but u r wrong…. i know u stop talking about ure baby cos ure afraid u r boring me out… i know u hate the fact that i read ure personal messages (from MD up until UBD), i know you know that everytime you say something i would always have a negative feedback, u never understand y i cant accept ure ideas when it comes to UNi work, u hate it when i never get your ideas, u hate it when i try to correct ure ideas, u hate it when i dont believe if u did ure readings, u hate it that i shows no interest what so ever with your conversation, u hate it when i indirectly insults the special person in ure life hence make u feel its not worth mentioning her to me since i have negative views on her, u hate it that im sounding more like my X, i even hate myself for complaining about money.

if your reading this… please comment… since your not answering my called… just correct me all my mistakes, and i will accept it gracefully and try to act more mature WHEN IM READY!!!! a special quote from him “Life’s a Bitch” NOW WE’RE EVEN!!!!!!!!!!

Out of my Life!!!

{ March 21, 2007 @ 3:29 pm } · { Uncategorized }
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it started off as a Good day for me, unfortunately…J and R managed to pissed me off before our PSE test ds morning, that i actually shouted at them to shut the fark off…that was how damn pissed i was…i was having pressure for the test, and my RE test results was so poor that it totally didnt cheer me up… however, the afternoon,C and I was suppose to go to UBD to do our gown thingy for graduation,so i waited for her at our so called ‘Centrel Perk’ and lucky Bobby was there to accompany me=)and C came at 3pm!!!!thank god i wasnt in the mood to go UBD too..so C,N and I did ‘kain’ shopping..it was great…it was non-stop laughing all the way…at first it was abit quiet, because it’s been awhile since we hang out wif C, so it just took a matter of time before we get all crazy… then C told me that my X (who is still a frenz of mine) asked her, if im pissed at him???? *totally blur,when C told me* he was shocked how come i do not talk to him as i talk to the others???so just now, i just had to called him up and asked him what is the matter,and if he needs to say something,he could just say it to me…. so yeah…his officially out of my life!!!

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K.I’s Burnout!!!

{ March 13, 2007 @ 2:28 pm } · { Friends }
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This guy is so…i duno what to say actually..hehehe.. his an old old old school mate of mine, back in elementary school, infact he is among the first group of people that i consider as friends, since we used to be in the same kindergarden class… and then in MD, he just got back from somewhere…and he was the one who taught me how to drive fast!!!! it was an exiciting feelings, from rimba and back to MD!!! gila… i missed those days, when the purpose of school is just to enjoy!!!…

So to the ladies out there, his still single and available…and his really nice…and K.I!!! i dedicate this post only and especially for you!!!!….

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{ March 11, 2007 @ 6:56 pm } · { ScrapBook }
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“Living Life with Happiness or Living Life with Meaning??” 

someone asked me this question… and i answer him this time “as living life with meaning”… and as he recalled in the past, i ever said ‘living life with happiness’… hmmm so which is which is it??? weird.. because i didnt realize him ever asking me this sort of question… however, we got into a huge religious conversation about life, what is the purpose, and etc etc etc… and in his conclusion…’normal ppl including girls would prefer happiness’ this is because when we live life with meaning, we would encounter sad moments and mistakes, and this could actually make us think of our past and put us down… whereas i on the other hand, argue that, with us living life with meaning, it could help us be a better human being, and learning from our mistakes might not be a bad thing, it would make us realize and prevent us from making the same mistake again, and i conclude that life right now is just temporarily whereas it is the after live that we are suppose to worry about’ and at the end he called me ‘now your thinking like an economists’ and as the conversation goes further and further … both is what is needed but more priority towards living life with meaning…

anyway… that was not suppose to be the original post for today, but somehow just recently it just make a quite an interesting conversation i guess… well Secondly…wanted to Congratulate to R’s brother for getting married today and also today mark my brother’s 1st month anniversary!!!so happy anniversary to my Brother and his Wife!!! ok the today stands for 11/03/2007…(i got so carried away with chatting that i forgot that its already the 12) and uni life starts once more =( and so far…none of the work that i planned to do was done… so there goes the ‘i must do this chapter and notes’ because soon work would be pilling up again…

Watched 300 last saturday, with the courtesy of N…she paid for the ticket and became my driver…so thanks alot babe…really had fun watching…and also thanks to R for paying for the popcorn…to be honest, i was a freerider…which was fun…kiddings…  well the movie was great, not that wonderful but great,like it though but there is just something missing i guess… because comparing the fight scenes with LOTR, somehow i really like LOTR and nope it is not because Orlando Bloom with his beautiful long blonde straight hair(ssiiggghhh…drooling) because 300, particularly shows MAN with 8 pacs…slurrpp…, ok daydreaming aside.. overall i like it, but not to the extreme i guess…but hey i should consider to be lucky because that night everything was free for me.. so to conclude it was an outstanding movie!!!

anyway…to conclude the week… good start on monday with studies…bad start on tuesday and wednesday (no studies), thursday and friday off to neighbouring country, saturday free-rider day…and sunday…missing three stones….

What should i do???

{ March 9, 2007 @ 2:28 pm } · { Uncategorized }
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i just got back from miri and i am super duperly tired, and at the moment im checking out University of Canterbury with the courses that are available for Master, however, the stressing thing is, i had enough with economics!!! i dont like it, i totally hate studying economics, it is fun actually…but i can never aces it!!!i always end up getting bad results, after all the hard work that i put towards it. So right now my dilemme is what course am i willingly to take???which i would end up liking and would produce a satisfying results… but so far, i dont know what to take… im looking into sociology, but could i coped with it??i havent studied sociology in 4years, but i do adore sociology, and now im thinking about english literature…now thats a big joke…because as i recall back in MD, i know nothing about english literature…and on my final year doing my A level, i started to get the giss out of it… so that’s a no-no…i remember telling my dad that i always wanted to be a lawyer…but recently a friend of mine F just drop out from her degree course…so doing master on it, might be a way way difficult…all i know is that i love music…but unfortunately i live in a country where dreams might not come true… the only dream that this country would provide is Government pay job, no tax, revenue from oil and gas are still available,academic qualifications is a must in order to survive in my country, other than that ‘its all a risk’!!!! therefore, im having difficulty in looking what are the courses that im willing to take, which could help in order to survive!!! living standard are increasing… bills bills bills need to be paid… status quo need to be maintain (not that i have any=p) … the thing is, i cant just pick any course that i would want to study just for fun… i need to choose a course that after i do graduate for my master, i would have a job waiting for me back here in my hometown…. but so far, i got none… i dont want to do economics…4years is just enough for me… i want to do something different… but that different thing would in the end brings some benefits for me… i love music, but i cant do a master in music, because music in my country is not a big success unlike other countries…

anyway… i shouldnt bother myself too much on it, because at the moment i have 6 courses and i need to get it over with, in order to graduate in less than 3 months time.. oh my god…how time really fly by…. i need to get my act up and running and try to get good grades for my final semester…. well im open with suggestion on what courses should i look into to do my masters… and where…hehehe… ciao..

Woman not knowing how much they are worth…

{ March 7, 2007 @ 4:29 pm } · { Uncategorized }
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Few weeks ago, i was checking out this slideshow from metacafe it was telling how God created woman, and at the end of the slide it mention that ‘woman dont know how much they are worth’…and i actually gotten into an argument with J and R(both guys) ’that its not the female fault that we do not realize that we are special, its just that, its hard to know how special we are, when they guys expectation on girls are high’… its like, its ok for them(guys) to be who they are, but when it comes to girls, they want something…like a perfect 10 girl… *thin,have curve,pretty,fair,medium height,nice teeth,nice smile,have the package,and to be one of the desperate housewives*

i hang out with guys everyday, different bunch of guys though, however the most common thing that i would hear from them if they were to see girls walking around, would be ‘nahh i rate her 4.5, or she’s hot and got the nice body but her face not that pretty so she’s a 6′ its really frustrating… and this is my friends, if they were not my friend, i bet they would rate me ’she a zero!!!’ but unfortunately, when i asked them, if they were to rate me, what would it be, and they’re answer would be ‘we do not rate our friends’. to be honest, i have tried everything, trying my best to be those models we see in the US, especially those acting at Entourage,but none work… i did starve myself,cut down my food,eat bunch of dieting pills,swimming,jogging,aerobic,eat healthy food’ but still im fat… god.. its just frustrating…and to be honest, im glad that i live in Brunei, because over here…there’s just isnt much peer pressure about looking thin,unlike other country. Was watching Oprah, and it was talking about teenage girls (including the popular one) how they have to act bitchy in order to get their fame, the uses of gossip (in order to put someone self-esteem down), and the pressure to fit into the shoes of popularity…to be honest, im very naive….i never realize this thing happen, i thought it only happens in the movie,but lately this stuff is happening in my beloved country,the younger generation are way way more dareing(sp?) then my generation (whom is still young!!!hehehehe)but luckily its not that serious i hope…

ok…im ranting again.. there’s just alot of things i need to say, but im mixing everything together that its not even making sense..no wonder i always end up getting low marks for my english before,perhaps im always excited when im talking that i feel the need to write everything down before i forget any…anyhow…the moral of the story is that, women do not know how much we are worth because its the guys that make us feel as if we are incomplete!!!…all the guys do, is complain and compare!!! its like, we girls accept them for who they are, why cant them accept us female for who we are!!! YES girls LOVE SHOPPING!!as GUYS LoVE FootBALL (or any sports) Girls go to the BEAUTY HEAVEN is not that we need to, its just that we HAVE/MUST do and this is for the guys satisfaction!!when a girl wear something very relaxing (guys would complain, ‘why are you dress in a rag??’why do you look like you got that from the garbage?’ but not to forget, if we dress up nicely..they would say ‘why are you all dress up?’….and the number one question i always hear lately is ‘why is it that girls tend to have big bags???,while us guys do not have to carry any bag’… well the answer to that is that, we girls love to have everything in our bags, and these stuff are the things that guys asked from a girl ‘do you have tissues?do you have a pen?do you have a paper?do you have a mirror(yes,guys lately are vain!!!)can you keep my handphone in your purse?can you keep my wallet in your purse? and everytime i hear this, i always end up arguing with them… the function of the handbag is that its a mini-home,where all the important are kept… anyway…im just ranting alot, and im not making any sense…so thumbs up to those who actually read this…because its not my best work…=P

Panic with just a minor incident

{ March 5, 2007 @ 1:42 pm } · { Uncategorized }
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Minor accident can actually give us a panicky feeling…
This post is about a friend of mine,N, before her accident just now, we were talking about previous days incident, where this woman was being bit**y towards ds woman, who accidentally hit the first woman car, and later J came and confess that he was actually pissed at both me and N for driving fast, 2 nights ago when we saw him on the road with his tengah@gf…. so technically we had ’sour mouth’ @ masin mulut…

we created a mini traffic jam just now, which only lasted less than 5 minutes, cos N decided to not get the police involvement, since we were at the big round about, and to wait for the police would take awhile and it would create a bigger traffic jam, luckily J was there too, cos he manage to calm N down, cos i wasnt being helpful, i was more worried about my car, since my window was still down, and somehow i was panicking… dont know why???…its weird, cos all this time, i imagine myself, what happen if those thing were to happen to me, *knockwood*, i would be calm, i know the procedure, but just now, i end up being the victim… like a convict, who committed a huge crime… but i feel pity for the guy who accidentally hit my friend’s car…

I guess it just a bad day for us… cos earlier on, N was pissed about something, and later on, i was feeling abit down with unseen issues, which i did talk to N about it (i do still have feeling for him,but i have too much ego and very stubborn, and i learn from my past, and i dont want to be the girl i used to be for that someone,for 5 years holding on someone is just hard,n eventhough ds guy n I ended the relationship quickly,but im sorry,i know i never mean anything towards you,and eventhough i act as if nothing happen,but its just hard, i had to keep everything to myself and not show him the saddness for not being with him, eventhough i see him often, my pride is covering my saddness)…and R was PMSing (note: R is a guy)…hehehe..

Lack of Sleep may results with Bad Results

{ March 5, 2007 @ 11:24 am } · { Advice Column, Readable }
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Teens’ Sleeplessness Leads to Failing Grades

Siggghh…if only they did this research early..i would have avoid insufficient sleep, because for the past two years, my grades have been very very dissapointing… and now im in my final semester!!!waggghhh.. and so far all my results have been freaking bad!!!!!!!!!…. and every week i have test test and more test…and i need to do 3 more presentation which also means 3 reports to hand in………there are just too many notes to do too!!!!!!!!!!