Like It Or Leave It

First of all,i wanna say ‘to my uncle who just passed away’ for 20 years ++ you have shut yourself from the outside world, you were once a happy person, but suddenly you have change to someone that none of us knew…you tried to cut all of us from your life but since we are blood relation ‘we are as stubborn as you were’. We really do love you, you were once our favorite happy uncle, and we will always remember you as that person even though you had changed alot the last twenty years. May you rest in Peace and May Allah Bless You. Amin. Thats the highlight of my 2007, alot of things have happen this year…not so of the sad part, but quite alot on the happy part…but in life everything have to be balance. The death of my late uncle came a shock to all of us… he died in his room without informing anyone that he is in pain..no one knew when exactly did he died…because no one ever step inside his house until last night when the bomba had to knockdown his door. He didnt get married, so he actually lived all alone with no connection to the world outside. He shield his house so tight that walking at his compound is very dangerous. My dad side is known to be very stubborn people…my late grandfather was stubborn and my late uncle is also stubborn, and yes my father is also stubborn…as for my siblings and I – yes we are all very stubborn. Last time i saw my late uncle was 5 years ago during Hari Raya, he was carrying a huge bag when his frame is so small, and inside his bag was chains,and heavy metal stuff that you used for fixing cars, he was walking around KB and my dad sister’s saw her 2nd brother walking around that she stopped at the bus stop to convince him to come home, luckily we were passing that road, that we too stop on the side of the road and my dad ‘as the eldest brother, requested his little brother to come back home with us’, but he manage to runaway from us… after seeing our uncle like that ‘my sisters and I started to cry and question ‘what had happened that led to his unexplainable attitude???’ so many gossips were told, so many question never answered until now… his life have been a mystery to everyone including to his own family..no one knew what had happened… and now he have left us, with no answer to the question that we all want to know….  My Late Uncle was the type of person who doesnt like to bother people, his moto is…if you dont disturb me i dont disturb you, but unfortunately…people do disturb him, but he just keep it to himself. A week ago, he was release from the hospital, my dad wanted to bring him back, but he manage to shut himself in his house,so dad cant bring him back home.Within that week, he manage to go shopping for foods, he had spent $500++ worth of goods, and relatives are saying ‘he bought the foods because he doesnt want people to be burden for his death’. Imagine a small frame old guy, buying 2 or 4 bag of rice/tons of cans of food and carrying it on his own-the thought of it make me sad, because he did bought a car, but never used it, he always walk and uses the bus. So imagine him carrying everything, walking to the bus stop, carry it to his house… Hanya Allah sahaja tahu apa Uncle ku mengalami selama ini. I thought i wouldnt cry, since half of my life, i dont know him that well, but during the funeral, i just can’t stop crying at all.It wasnt an act of trying to get people’s attention, but it was from my heart, i do have uncle’s and aunty whom i love and cherish alot, but he was the only uncle who is 100% blood connection…and to not know you’re own uncle is sad…It felt as if we have lost someone who is so close eventhough from the outside we are not close, but in our heart’s Uncle you are always a part of us…we love you from the bottom of our heart, and hope that you are finally in peace.AMIN. Semoga Roh nya di cucuri rahmat. Amin.