guy problem alert!!!…
its 5.31am at da moment… jst got off the phone with my best frenz R, had a long discussion abt sme1 in particular…and somehw he tot abt my ‘never-ending story’ wif this other sme1… and combining both of them i end up crying…its been awhile tat i actually cry for sme1, n the longest time i ever cried for sme1 was this ‘N-Es’ person, bt nw this particular sme1 jst make me cry out of nowhere =S eventhough he doesnt make my heart beat faster or make me have butterflies in my stomach…but once i told R that i decide to cool off with ds particular sme1, i jst cried… wierd… i think my period is acting up again… one of the symptoms, being too sensitive,cranky,backpains and other stuffs…bt usually i wld end up crying for nothing n backpains…few days ago i delete the X’s msgs…n put sme1’s msgs in a folder(a 1st for me) n reading back the Xs msgs, didnt make me sad or cry…i jst read it n deleted it… usually if i were to read ‘N-Es’ msgs i would cry,bt the X’s didnt make me weep…n ds particular sme1 whom im currently in-contact wif, im too scared to lose him n too scared to go forward with (btw: i duno whether he likes me or not) so yeah…im kindda in da rocky situation whether too msg him or not… n im jst scared tat i end up lossing him oso eventhough we both havent started to get to know each other really well…
anyway…enuff of my weird drama queen situation…beginning of the week until last saturday have been the greatest days… get to hang out wif A [afta days of her dissapearing n oso she got her 1st pay-check=)]n finally afta months and months i saw my old frenz W it was jst a surprise to meet him…got to hang out with him n chitchat n even meet up wif A.B, saw all most of MDs guy frenz while they were playing footie [E,Q,H,Bee,J,Yea2,B.R and others] hang out with my old frenz G,who i went out wif for shisha(sp?) and damn i was high…hahaha.. it was just so hilarious that i was laughing non-stop…everything that G say i keep on laughing.. until he had to send me off to UBD so tat R would accompany me when i pick my car at gdg bt at the end, i did end up picking my car, n tat particular sme1 was there at UBD =S…so i didnt know whether i blew my chances with him (oopss..here i am again ranting abt my drama queen situation)
oh yeah… we had steamboat for dinner again!!! at least this time it is for year 2007!!!it was to da delicious, n W was there when we had our dinner n he tag along eating some of the crumbs… he sure still looks the same, sigghh.. i missed my life in MD…when i meet all my friends everyday…now most of them are workings, others still studying overseas and so forth…life is totally different… but still glad that we all still chitchat once in awhile….
i know my family have been pissed at me…cos by early or late afternoon i would dissapear and not show up until its 10pm (my curfew nowadays – due to the raining seasons) which sucks…but whenever the siblings msgs, i have to head back home =S…no questions asked n no more lying n jst hope they wont bug me with my unavailableness at home….(if there is such a word as ‘unavailableness’) but hey…its a rare occasion when u get to meet up all ure old mates n still click with them even afta months of not contacting one another… n later at 1 another old frenz of mine who just got back from KL wants to meet up…hope there’s no family stuff that i have to do so that i can hang out with her…. well…i guess im off to bed again now….
P.S: Missings the birdies and the chickies… n tat particular sme1 =P